"Setting the Scene"
I was living the life, some way or another, up to when I did my first year in college. Music Literature required too many library visits and I got behind in memorizing my major instrument, as I was in 21 credit hours. They added the Music Literature that year. Somehow, I got called to the office, probably for my singing class or teacher gossip, and they said I was too shy to keep up the singing and Music Education and to just major in organ, which didn't sound like there was as much in it. I told other people what happened, but no help there. I had a big scholarship at a top college. It had everything I needed it seemed, even a ballet minor I was in. I ended up going home, supposedly also was a recommended sabbatical, but am seen as a college drop out, it feels.
Secret Messages
Everyone kept clean from a guilty conscience by not interacting with me directly but symbolically telling me my teacher from the singing class was monitoring me in private all my waking hours. They even kept a door closed to one room often, symbolically saying she was there. When a hurricane hit, I went to college up north and had to go home because I was falling behind etc. I was hearing voices there. Now, my life was all back to normal except ruined. I lost my singing voice and didn't have good access to an organ and lost my real piano, staying in an apartment then with my family. I've lived in a total of 4 apartments with my family and 2 being in this area and 6 college dorms.
"That's too much."
I ended up living with my parents for 11 years not going anywhere. 1st, I stayed in my room and posted online not seeing people much at all, but then I started going out with my dad after like 3 years, to the movies and things.
"In Trouble" "for No Reason"
Ever since I came home from college and the secret messages stopped, everyone was acting so mean to me secretly. I wasn't able to succeed and at the same time was hearing voices. I went back to my old college after the one up north, and then the noises hurt me.